So...I'm officially living on my own down in Florida.
There are so many thoughts/feelings about all these changes, but a few stand out.
- I'm still happy. Even though I'm way outside of my comfort zone, I am happy with my decision to prioritize living the life I want to live, even if I don't know exactly what it will look like. I'm currently reading a book called "101 Essays That Will Change the Way You Think," by Brianna Weist - and she talks about how the only way to increase your upper happiness threshold (the level of happiness you allow yourself to feel before you self-sabotage and start regressing to your happiness baseline) is by pushing outside of your comfort zone and becoming comfortable with discomfort.
- I think I am polyamorous. This means I believe I can have romantic feelings/interest in more than one person at a time - and I'm interested in exploring relationships where everyone is okay with that. I think a lot of jealousy and communication challenges come from this strange pressure in our society to only ever be attracted to one person - forever. Life is short, I believe we should be able to explore whatever connections catch our interest.
- I still love live-streaming. The longer I do this, the more I realize I am creating a type of video documentary of my life, capturing different moments, thoughts, feelings, and energies. Over the years I've even documented the beginnings and endings of multiple relationships. I think many of you are able to relate to at least some of my experiences, and it's awesome to have connected with so many awesome humans in just a few short years. I love what I do and I just want to keep doing it!
Feel free to email me if you have any questions about any of this. I know it's a pretty big life change, though I've been trying to keep my streaming content relatively consistent.
I'm still streaming predominantly gaming over on Twitch
, and I've started very regular TikTok
live streams from yoga to homework to poolside chats, it reminds me a lot of the old Periscope vibe. We're almost at 60k followers on there, too! When we get to 100k, we unlock a new level of monetization!! I plan to catch up on some Youtube
book review of a couple books I've read, and I want to get DBD School 103 recorded, edited, and posted on there. You can also check out my "spicy" NSFW adult content on OnlyFans
I'll be honest, it's a bit intimidating paying all the bills 100% solo, so if you're wondering how you can help, I put a couple housewarming type items on my Amazon wishlist
, or you can just support the channel like you always can at https://nexjuice.com/support
Love you guys. Appreciate y'all reaching out for a chat now more than ever, too. Onward and upward! I'm excited to see what's next for us.
Taylor aka "Nex"